Dear Loren,

This is the most emotionally overwhelming moment for me.  You have become my most important soul-mate for life --- over these years. 

I know how heavy it is for you to accept a choice to be without Bonnie and reconcile to it, knowing what she means to you in her present body.  I wish I was in physical proximity to share your feelings.

Dear Loren,

This is the most emotionally overwhelming moment for me.  You have become my most important soul-mate for life --- over these years. 

I know how heavy it is for you to accept a choice to be without Bonnie and reconcile to it, knowing what she means to you in her present body.  I wish I was in physical proximity to share your feelings.

[Karl Loren] There is no difficulty in making this decision.  Bonnie and I just spent an hour, at 1 AM, sitting on our porch/patio and talking about the coming events.  It was an uplifting conversation for both of us.

The "hard" thing is no longer "dieing" but "saying good by."

That too is now well understood, if not yet done.

We have a plan -- I'll tell you as the first person.

Bonnie has in mind some people who she feels she must have some sort of personal communication with -- for instance, my son Garth, arrives this next Monday, for a visit of about 5 hours.  She certainly wants to "hang around" until then.   There are few others who she may feel she needs to "satisfy" with their viewing of her "alive body."

But, I will be auditing her in the forthcoming days on "leaving" and by June 30 we expect she will be well-practiced on this confidential LRH process, and easily ready to leave the body.

About June 30th, then, there are some other steps we expect to do, allowing the body to die peacefully, and that may take several days, or not, but not very long, so that Bonnie plans her death for, more or less, July 5th.

I have already been planning the Memorial Service, what I will say, where, etc., and gone over most of that with Bonnie -- that will be about 7 to 10 days after the death of the body.

Bonnie will stick around, at least, for that Memorial service, but even then we have discussed what next she will do -- and as of now (she can always change) she has decided to NOT come back in a new body for "some while."

There is such certainty on these things, and such calmness, that I can, and she too, confront any amount of "crying" or "worry" by others -- at this process.

I too will cry, some, but know in advance that the grief I feel is just a reminder of the times I have died, in unpleasant circumstances.

There is so much -- I look forward to this process for both of us.

I hope these words help YOU.

I express my total solidarity with you for now -- and forever. 

I know you will not mourn Bonnie's decision to leave the body as you know the hidden truth about this process.  Nor will Bonnie chose to take such a decision regretfully, as she knows exactly what she is doing .... a simple transfer of "residence" as the present one has become inhabitable for pleasurable, meaningful & purposeful living. 

[Karl Loren] You are exactly right. 

Both I & my wife will want to talk to her over the phone,  please let me know what is the best time and day that suits Bonnie.  Please also give this note below from me to her.

[Karl Loren] That is fine.  Generally our plans are for her to "stay in good enough shape" to receive visits and phone calls, for about a week, then none.

I would say that the phone call can come at any time, but that is a bit too loose, let's find a time that is convenient for you and for us.

We have been using the speaker phone in our bedroom, but it is not very loud -- I don't know whether we can get that improved in the next day or so -- we also have the standard phone plus a portable phone, and can each use one -- so that the volume is probably fine that way -- we'll practice more in the next day or so.

Today, now is 1:41 AM, Wednesday 23 June, and I'm guessing that Friday or Saturday, our time, sounds fine -- I'll include this as part of the further planning we must do.

Bonnie is now engaged in a series of "good bys" some of which will be by phone, some by visit, and some by thought.

You are surely on our list of important "good bys."

Love,

Loren

Love,

Babu.

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Dear Bonnie,

No one can question your decision -- but all of us feel terrible & horrible about the circumstances which have lead you to your final decision.  You are the only one where I have grown so fond of a friend's wife.

[Karl Loren] In actual fact, Dear Babu, the circumstances have not been found to be "terrible or horrible."  Part of the process of "calm departure" is to "nurture the entire experience."  Bonnie is coming to that.

Just today, for instance, at 4 PM, we had a dash of bitter salt thrown in our faces -- and my first reaction was anger.

I have a page you can read about how we felt up to 4 PM, today.

It is here:

http://www.oxygentimerelease.com/B/Bonnie/p27.htm

As you read that page you may understand how Bonnie and I had not yet let go of this physical existence, and had some hope that surgery would be helpful.

Today, 4 PM, to be published soon on the web, we visited the surgeon with that hope and I felt anger at his "severe rejection of our hopes."  He said there was no chance surgery would help, etc., and treated Bonnie very cruelly, I thought.

But now, some hours later, both of us realize that his comments simply helped Bonnie let go of one of the "ties" she had had == ties to the body. So we both now look at that surgeon as helping us reach this state of calm.

there is much more like this -- no part of this whole experience can now be considered terrible.

We have even seen, more deeply, why Bonnie decided to have these experiences, and I will be writing about that.

I fondly remember the moments ----- you gave me "assist" for my acute body aches --- when you fixed & stitched buttons for my Blazer --- many lunches at your home with Chester barking for your attention --- many dinners outside (once you wore the dress stitched with the hand made silk I brought from India in your favourite colour - Violet) where you corrected my eating style of certain items ordered to avoid dropping things on myself and getting messy --- the drives we had around Burbank and the time spent at the Astro Observatory near by --- the comfort and solace you provided with your wise counsel when my very dear sister passed away suddenly --- I can go on and on.......

[Karl Loren] As well you can and should.  Bonnie lives in your memories and can never die there. She lives in another existence, not in your memory, or mind, but in a newly created present -- soon.  You are welcome to cherish those memories, as will I, about the Bonnie we knew. 

Love

Loren

No matter where you choose to be --- which body you choose to reside in again --- we will be in touch (ARC) eternally.

Immense Love,

Babu.

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